Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Guatemala Update

We're going to Guatemala in November. And somehow it's paid for up to this point. And somehow my boss let me take a week off work. And for some reason God decided to let us go. It doesn't make sense to me, but I'm really excited about it.

I think this trip is going to be more than just a trip. What does that mean? I have no idea. All I know is that the other day I read the book of James. James got me through the summer of '09. I read it almost everyday. It kept me going. Anyway, I read it the other day while I was bored at work and I remembered Guatemala. And then I prayed for Guatemala. And then for my husband. And then for our tiny 2 person family. And then for our future.

I don't know what the future holds and sometimes that is really scary to me. And by "sometimes" I mean mostly all the time. I mean, what happens when God takes away your job? Or forces you to stop being so selfish? Or asks you to moved away from the small town you love and grew up in? Or has you give up your dreams of living in a mid-century-modern house and having the best vintage apron collection there ever was? Or wants you to adopt a baby from Africa when you have extremely racist family members? Or transplants you to a country where it's always hot? I don't really know. All I know is when you're loving Jesus things will be hard... but they will also be good.


JessM said...

This post is pretty much where I'm at right now in my life.
Like I feel like God is asking me to do things I never imagined for myself or never thought I was capable of. A lot of the things are really hard and I want to give up every other day but I know that if I want to follow Jesus I have a cross I have to take up daily. I know that I have to die to myself daily.
I know that it will all be a blessing in the end and that there is a reason for it.
It's cool that you're going through this too because it means something awesome is probably on the horizon.

cottage girl said...

Hard = good. One of the hardest lessons to learn in the world. I'm right there with you.
And you should totally adopt from Africa. Or China. Or anywhere. I would if I could in a heartbeat.